Am I Immoral or Just Human?
Am I Immoral or Just Human?
Are we really just puppets in the hand of the God or we make our own destiny? I have been pondering over this question
since I was old enough to know about the god but this question never left my mind!!!. Well this is not a question anymore
in my mind since I realised that I am not wise enough to even answer the question myself. Also no one I know, has been
able to give me a satisfactory answer. However well read they are. May be we are not even supposed to have an answer to
this?
I do not know about the others but I desperately want to believe that there is no destiny and we are what we make of
ourselves. It is only our actions that make or break our life. I am still divided into half on my beliefs. I try to blame
GOD for anything gone wrong and give myself laurels for anything great in my life. Am i being immoral in doing so?
One of my good friend always says that there is no destiny. More I try to accept this, it becomes more and more
embarassing for me to accept my failures. Because if god is not who controls my life and I control it as I want to
believe then all the failures are just result of my bad decisions. This can kill any one's confidence and not just mine.
However If I start believing in god and the destiny then nothing is in my hand. It builds confidence but then it kills
the whole fun of even trying and making mistakes and learning from it. Most of the people I know belong to this camp and
it is very comforting thought especially in the wake of something gone horribly wrong. Atleast you will not have
yourselves to blame? And you can sleep at night?
Is this very irresponsible of me or selfish of me that I do not want to accept the responsiblity of my actions? I do not what to believe and what not to believe but more I think of it more I become worried of my conciousness going
awry.
What ever I believe, I just know that there is only "Hope" that keeps me going. Hoping that next time I will not make the
same mistake in my decision or next time around god will be more generous to me in deciding my destiny. So I keep on
trying and hoping for the best.
Till i settle this debate in my mind ... prefer to call me believer!!!
Are we really just puppets in the hand of the God or we make our own destiny? I have been pondering over this question
since I was old enough to know about the god but this question never left my mind!!!. Well this is not a question anymore
in my mind since I realised that I am not wise enough to even answer the question myself. Also no one I know, has been
able to give me a satisfactory answer. However well read they are. May be we are not even supposed to have an answer to
this?
I do not know about the others but I desperately want to believe that there is no destiny and we are what we make of
ourselves. It is only our actions that make or break our life. I am still divided into half on my beliefs. I try to blame
GOD for anything gone wrong and give myself laurels for anything great in my life. Am i being immoral in doing so?
One of my good friend always says that there is no destiny. More I try to accept this, it becomes more and more
embarassing for me to accept my failures. Because if god is not who controls my life and I control it as I want to
believe then all the failures are just result of my bad decisions. This can kill any one's confidence and not just mine.
However If I start believing in god and the destiny then nothing is in my hand. It builds confidence but then it kills
the whole fun of even trying and making mistakes and learning from it. Most of the people I know belong to this camp and
it is very comforting thought especially in the wake of something gone horribly wrong. Atleast you will not have
yourselves to blame? And you can sleep at night?
Is this very irresponsible of me or selfish of me that I do not want to accept the responsiblity of my actions? I do not what to believe and what not to believe but more I think of it more I become worried of my conciousness going
awry.
What ever I believe, I just know that there is only "Hope" that keeps me going. Hoping that next time I will not make the
same mistake in my decision or next time around god will be more generous to me in deciding my destiny. So I keep on
trying and hoping for the best.
Till i settle this debate in my mind ... prefer to call me believer!!!
posted by Nk | 11:40 PM
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